Well, a sickbed isn’t really my choice; I wouldn’t choose to spend days in bed.
I’m just not feeling that good.
To put that into context, I’ve got MS anyway, and now i’ve got a bug. So the usual crap is exacerbated,
I’m nauseous, shivery, my bones ache and don’t want to take my weight. The furbys are missing their walks. So not much going on here.
I was getting in training for Tarchin’s Mahamudra retreat in a few weeks time as well. Now I’m thinking through cotton wool 😦
So, the gift in this?
I like offering that snuggly warm safe feeling to the Guru at my heart, and up to all the Buddhas and Holy beings. Also, to all those poor souls who can’t experience such luxury. I want them to be safe and comfortable too.
From a tantric point of view, that feeling of warm snuggliness becomes bliss inseparable from emptiness; offered to myself as the deity for the sake of those who aren’t so fortunate.
Unable to meditate much, I’ve been doing lots of Vajrasattva mantras instead. It’s brilliant purification, and can lift our mind immediately. (Mantras are something you can do in bed, which i like 😉 They’re good for housework too. Not so keen).
The short version of Vajrasattva’s mantra is:
We repeat this while regretting any bad stuff we’ve done, and being determined not to do it again, (x21, or for at least for as long as you can)
Finish by imagining Vajrasattva’s pure white light flows into us, dissolving all the bad stuff away. Then imagine our body and mind fills up with this white light, leaving us clean and pure.
OK, the usual headache’s becoming a migraine, so back to my duvet…
nb. This is just a snippet on purification. And there’s more to come on karma.
But see Geshe la’s free ebook Modern Buddhism for more on both.
And thanks to Kelsang Dorje for rapid response mantra verification.